When You are a Fledgling at Work

Though I used to study here, though I was raised here, I am considered a newbie when it comes to work. The first few days at work are not hectic, mostly attending meetings. And basically, I just kept quiet and listen, the best I can do is writing the meeting minutes for them.

I dare not be active in speaking, because I think is not the right time, no matter how much I know about the environment and the people here.

I learnt a lesson last semester, when I was a trainee teacher.
I was just wanted to relieve the teachers' pressure. I was too complacent that I thought that I knew a student well, assuming that her teacher would trust me. I stopped to pacify a crying student, who was still feeling nostalgic on the second day of school. In the end it turned the other way out. She was indeed consoled, however I lost the trust from her teacher after telling the her in a righteous manner, to sympathize her and give her more time to overcome her emotions.

Never speak up your opinions unless requested. Just listen, and know what the seniors are thinking, and observe how things work. Just in case if our opinions might sound offensive, even though we don't have such intentions. Their opinions may not be appropriate, nevertheless, they are seniors, they have more experienced than you, and they deserve respect. They are doing their best to contribute. Perhaps, we can learn more when we just listen quietly.

Don't make yourself too prominent among your colleagues. I believe that everyone is unique and outstanding. Give everyone support, and put them before you. Talk to them humbly.

In the past, I valued too much on my performance, afraid to be despised. I know that no one want to belittle others deliberately. However, I wanted to be recognized by my talents. Yes, I did get the attention I was seeking for. But so what? Am I happy? Yes for the moment when I hear the praises. I was a hypocrite with tremendous ego. Showy, but not sincere. People wouldn't like me from the bottom of their heart. People who work closely with me wouldn't give me the attention I wanted. In fact they dislike me for being so pretentious. Back then, I was so oblivious about how ignorant, how vain, how selfish I was, making myself sound accused and grievance, and let those who don't know my true colors would console me by saying, "forgive them, they are just jealous."

I committed the same mistake last semester, resulting some teachers wouldn't welcome me to their class even though I blend well with the students. I think that I didn't put them into consideration and serve them enough.

I have started working. Facing these people are like sailing against the current, climbing against the gravity. They are good people. They wouldn't wish to dislike someone else. They are just a reminder to me. Remind me that I have to be more tactful, more considerate, more sincere, more humble, more sensible, more sensitive. At the third day of work, I feel the climb.

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